Adulting 1.6

I'm had a date with my ex. Once or twice a week kami nagkikita. In fact dito siya natulog kagabi. I'm secretly stalking him in dating app and right now, he is online. 

I don't know what to do. I feel betrayed but I don't have a right to say something. I give him a ointment for his fleas bites and insecticide for his cats. I also prepared a gift for his birthday this coming April. 

Di ko alam ano gagawin ko. Siguro inviting him playing a mobile legends is my only option to get his attention. I'm really hurt right now. I see him laughing and enjoy the moment when we're dating but I'm in this fucking situation right now. I think I'm killing myself little by little. 

Help me God.